The last few weeks, I have learned a lot about forgiveness; both about the power behind it and the resolution and sense of calm achieved when it is granted. I have learned that some people are too weak to offer it, while others are too stubborn to even consider it. I have learned that there are people in the world who would rather suffer and watch others suffer despite their power to stop the suffering. I have watched people I thought I knew take small incidents and allow them to grow into wedges the size of craters.
I have also watched others who have forgiven everything, and are still led to suffer, to fall, to beg for their very existence. To them, the offering of forgiveness flows out with every breath. They hold nothing back, they have no strength to carry the weight of the burdens of others. It is enough that they must carry their own.
And, through it all, I am finally at peace with my decision. Forgiveness does not come from a place of weakness, but rather from a place of incredible strength. Because sometimes a mouse can carry a boulder, but only a superhero can let it go. We often make the mistake that the more boulders we have, the taller we stand. But in reality, these boulders sit not beneath our feet, but directly on our shoulders, making us hunched over and less able to move ahead.
And even though I’m considered relatively young, I don’t know how much time I have left on this earth or how it will be spent. But I would like to make a promise to forgive those who have scorned me in the past and those who will hurt me in the future. One may question if that is the right thing to do or how I know that these people are deserving of my forgiveness. To this I say, it is not my choice to be their judge, jury or executioner. I am simply one person, one soul, and in all the power and all the strength that I carry within me, all I have to offer any and every one who deems it necessary to puncture my world is forgiveness.
Perhaps, some will see this is as a weaker path in life. Yet still some may not understand how I can make such a bold decision. I make this choice because of a deeper understanding of life that I have acquired over the last few years that life is about love. Giving love, receiving love, spreading love, being love, not in love, but just love, in its purest and rarest form. The kind of love that has no agenda, no ego, nothing other than itself. I often strive to achieve that level of love in my meditations, and I know that the only way to do so is to relinquish anything I hold that is not of that love. The quickest way to a clean palate is forgiveness. It has the power to clear any road, reveal any path, remove any smudge.
So what is this kind of love? I have for brief moments, while deep in my meditations, touched on this eternal love, and it is radiating, beautiful and everywhere. It’s just waiting to be felt, to be captured, and to be experienced. The more you give into it, the deeper you feel it, and the more love you give, the greater the love you receive. That is why I choose to offer forgiveness. I am convinced that this world is about love. Our life is about love. Our very existence is about love. A pure love that flows in the form of energy and encompasses everything around it, without prejudice, without thought, and without hesitation.